Well, since no one checks this blog, and it can come to a semblance of truth here it is.
I've resigned to die. There is nothing that I can humanly do to assist my family. My sister has no pride, and is a leech, with no idea of what appreciation is. Her children are much the same--except maybe Briana. We share this house by birthright; a "gift" from my dead father. Shortly before his death, he told me not to let my sister take this house from me. It is with some regret that I release this possession to her. Since I have moved back I have had to keep 2 jobs just to keep the bills paid. Because she is able to receive food stamps there is food every night. I am not used to this kind of gravelling. She is a cist, much like one you might find on an ovary. I have depleted my savings in attempting to help her sorry ass in this situation.
I need no assistance in fucking up my life, but this city has assisted me greatly in doing just that. In 2006, I left the state, skipping out on a probation that stemmed from the previous year, along with my father's death. Because of that when I returned in 2008 to help my sister I had to spend 30 days in jail. Due to the fact that my job in Atlanta fired me, I had to resort to working as a cashier for minimum wage before swallowing my pride and taking a job with Omaha Public Schools as a paraprofessional--a position that I am over-qualified for. Beyond that, my community involvement led me to a busted relationship with a off balanced woman who supposedly miscarried my child. And to top off the "sundae" I met a very nice woman who has kids--not my preference; got involved with here--not good; and had to end it today because she was catching too many feeling--i'm done.
So it's Christmas time, I have no part time job because my car is down, and I'll hopefully have $200 after repairs and gifts until the 15th.
If I am able to get myself another part time job, I will move out, enjoy it for about a month, buy myself a gun, and be done. I'm cool on living, I hope to find peace in my next life.
